Being a Jew at christmas has always been a bit tough- or maybe it's not the Jewish thing, maybe it's the 'coming from a totally dysfunctional family thing'...all I know is that while all of my friends home's glistened with lights an baubles and PRESENTS, lots and lots of presents, I envied them.
This year, at this middle point of my life, I realize it wasn't the presents I envied, it was the fact that their families gathered and celebrated together, while I felt, and still apparently feel, quite alone.
Oh, don't get me wrong- I have a beautiful family now- the most fabulous daughter you could imagine. We are definitely soul-sisters as we crack each other up all day long, and love spending time together! But alas, last night she went to her father's and I am alone...on Christmas...call the waaambulance! (o:
So...what am I going to do about it...well, I've made my start with a little blogging- me here, hi, writing mostly to myself. (O: And I am going to go to a movie today- YAYYY! and ...well... I've decided, next year I am going to be nicer to ME and I am going to keep my daughter for Christmas and celebrate it with her!!!
In my marriage, I was always doing what was right for HIM- and I can still see I have remnants of this going on...but next year I'm going to enjoy Christmas, with my daughter! We will make cookies and SANTA WILL COME... I know he will!!!
So I have put a Christmas painting up on my blog, as you can see and I am wishing all of you a beautiful Holiday and I thank you all for enjoying my ART. Creativity has definitely been God's gift to me and I share this gift with you.
With love and light,
Sharron Katz
ps Afternoon art in the new year- for YOU! http://www.arttherapyformoms.blogspot.com/
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